When it's dark and I'm all alone, and I'm scared or freaking out or whatever, I always think, "What would Tara do?" Okay, sometimes when it's dark and I'm alone I think, "What is Tara wearing?"
(Apologies to Xander : The Freshman)
A couple days ago, I answered a post by HTK and as I was writing, I very suddenly realized just how deeply Taras loss and Willows degradation had got to me. Something enormously precious has been taken from us. I think were all in a dark place, right now
In one of my other dark places, back at the beginning of my senior high school year, when Season Four of BTVS was just starting, I sat and watched every episode from Welcome to the Hell-Mouth thru Graduation Day Part 2 practically non-stop. (Okay, I needed help maybe in the 60s, it would have earned me a spell as a Girl, Interrupted!) . It took the best part of a week, and earned me a ton of grief from mom and dad for monopolizing the video. Well, they were part of the dark place, so that didnt add much to the tonnage
What I got out of that eyeball-spinning marathon was Willow-therapy. Its like Xanders quote above, except my spirit guide was Willow and its a bit more complicated than just what would she do?.
Tara joined her as the senior partner spirit-guide as soon as she turned up at that hoot of a Wicca group. Willow and Tara are my guides because theyre smart and adult and have been in most of the same dark places as me. Theyve also been strong and been bad on occasion. And, yes, I identify more with Willow cos shes been baddest and I worship Tara more because shes most what I should be like.
But its hard to cope with Taras loss by asking myself how Tara would cope, and Willows way doesnt seem to be my way, any more
Anyone in LittleWillows sewing circle here feel the same way, or use Tara as a spirit guide?
Okay, sometimes I definitely stop and wonder what Ambers wearing This is not helped by my honey looking a lot like Amber Be still my beating heart!!!
Hugs,
Sara
(Saraben: I only edited the title of the thread. - LW)
(Apologies to Xander : The Freshman)
A couple days ago, I answered a post by HTK and as I was writing, I very suddenly realized just how deeply Taras loss and Willows degradation had got to me. Something enormously precious has been taken from us. I think were all in a dark place, right now
In one of my other dark places, back at the beginning of my senior high school year, when Season Four of BTVS was just starting, I sat and watched every episode from Welcome to the Hell-Mouth thru Graduation Day Part 2 practically non-stop. (Okay, I needed help maybe in the 60s, it would have earned me a spell as a Girl, Interrupted!) . It took the best part of a week, and earned me a ton of grief from mom and dad for monopolizing the video. Well, they were part of the dark place, so that didnt add much to the tonnage
What I got out of that eyeball-spinning marathon was Willow-therapy. Its like Xanders quote above, except my spirit guide was Willow and its a bit more complicated than just what would she do?.
Tara joined her as the senior partner spirit-guide as soon as she turned up at that hoot of a Wicca group. Willow and Tara are my guides because theyre smart and adult and have been in most of the same dark places as me. Theyve also been strong and been bad on occasion. And, yes, I identify more with Willow cos shes been baddest and I worship Tara more because shes most what I should be like.
But its hard to cope with Taras loss by asking myself how Tara would cope, and Willows way doesnt seem to be my way, any more
Anyone in LittleWillows sewing circle here feel the same way, or use Tara as a spirit guide?
Okay, sometimes I definitely stop and wonder what Ambers wearing This is not helped by my honey looking a lot like Amber Be still my beating heart!!!
Hugs,
Sara
(Saraben: I only edited the title of the thread. - LW)
Hugs,
and unless she actually appears if shes a spirit, I'm not all yay for it.
