I confess that my problems, such as they are, are not quite as nerve-wracking as ACM's.....
Hey and hop on back in, Goya.....
Hey and hop on back in, Goya.....
Confessions
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 Ebdim9th |
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Posts: 951 (06/05/09 07:54:28) Brain Food |
"correct me if I'm wrong but... Mission accomplished!" - George
"Your're wrong. This is me correcting you." - Rube |
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Posts: 1351 (06/05/09 10:51:13) |
I confess a huge load of big hugs to everyone who needs em
I confess to wishing I could help every person in the world to be happy I confess that in the end, maybe I would earn some happyness too |
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DorothyOverTheRainbow |
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Posts: 1358 (06/12/09 00:35:57) |
Big confession, sorry, if you don't want to read it's ok.
You can also just pick the first paragraph and the purple part if you want to read it, but preffer a shorter version. I've been mentally abused by my parents all my life, making sure I'd feel like I was worth less than everyone else, even less then my sisters, who were treated like dirt too. This @##*#+ me up, together with being bullied from the age of 6 well into my late teens and psychiatrists telling me that I was handicapped and would never be able to live a full, worthy life. I never knew who I was, never knew, or dared to believe I could achieve things, or was even good enough to do stuff. Good enough to talk to people, to have friends even, all those things were impossible for me, or so I was made to believe. It's less than 3 years ago that I started to push these boundaries, forgive me, I am trembeling as I type this... scared maybe, that I am lying, doing something wrong or just pretending I am worthy of my own life... I started at college, a few months later I went looking for a place to live, to get away from the mental wards my mother had continuously kept me in since I was 13yo. for my 21st birthday my sister gave me a bellybutton piercing, she was being trained as a piercer and I would be her first. I had wanted it for 7 years, I trusted my sister fully, yet I cried and begged for days, because my mom wouldn't give me permission ( you don't need that from your 16th but anyway,i felt I couldn't do it if she disaproved) Just over a year ago I started watching tv shows and movies my mother prohibited, inculding Buffy and Starwars. See, I was (am) pretty badly influenced... yet people tell me "it is in the past, let it go, get over it, you are your own person now, stop fretting about what happened back then" BUT TODAY I REALISED: It is OK for me to be affected by this. It doesn't give me a wildcard to whine about it... But it is perfectly normal that someting embedded so deep will not go away overnight. It's not a thing you "get over" It's a thing that needs hard work and some time. I am working on it but it is not whiney or whatever if I get a backlash or have trouble with my progress or feelings while doing that Important thing is not to give up, but my way to a brighter future doesn't have to be an empty, straightforward 5 lane highway all the time. That just can't be done but believe me: I will keep on traveling forward, I have no intention at all to stay in this dark and unpleasant place (sorry it got a bit long, need chocolate now) |
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Posts: 3132 (06/12/09 02:19:05) Redeeming Deed |
You're right, Dorothy. It is okay to be affected by that and it's not something that's just gonna go away by itself overnight. The important thing
is you are traveling forward, and not using it as an excuse as to why you can't live your life.
Stacy
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MegansMom |
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Posts: 5645 (06/12/09 04:21:28) Animated Self |
I confess I've been away too long.
I confess I've missed you guys. |
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DorothyOverTheRainbow |
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Posts: 1360 (06/12/09 04:37:21) |
I confess you've been missed
I confess to being glad you're back |
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GoyaP |
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Posts: 4433 (06/13/09 00:12:25) Town Mouse |
i confess a huge welcome back sue!
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summer fairy |
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Posts: 7003 (06/13/09 11:14:33) Special Effects |
It is OK for me to be affected by this.
It doesn't give me a wildcard to whine about it... But it is perfectly normal that someting embedded so deep will not go away overnight. It's not a thing you "get over" It's a thing that needs hard work and some time. I am working on it but it is not whiney or whatever if I get a backlash or have trouble with my progress or feelings while doing that Important thing is not to give up, but my way to a brighter future doesn't have to be an empty, straightforward 5 lane highway all the time. That just can't be done but believe me: I will keep on traveling forward, I have no intention at all to stay in this dark and unpleasant place I confess that I feel this is perhaps after we had our conversation on msn Dorothy? I was not telling you to 'get over' anything. I was telling you that you are letting it get in the way and even you said that you can't and sometimes just won't even try to think possitive. I may have been blunt, but I wasn't going to pretend to be too sypathetic. I do feel for what life has been like for you but to me, it feels like it is on your mind an unhealthy amount of time. You and most people on here know about things that happened to me ( and are still happening) so I'm not talking crap, I know what its like. But it is something you have to work HARD at, in order to not allow it to ruin your life. No, it is not easy, it's not something you get over overnight. However, prior to our talk on msn, I felt you didn't particularly want to feel any better (as strange as that sounds) I feel it is easier for you to feel anger towards your mum or whoever. Its easier to blame others. Its natural to feel these things but its not healthy to feel them as strongly as I think you feel them, for the length of time you have done. I am no fan of my mother, far from it. BUT I don't allow her to get in the way of what I want to do. I've worked at this for years and its been hard but its now possible for me to consciously stop myself from thinking about her and what she's done. I won't lie she does still get to me from time to time, but its only to be expected. People may react in an angry manner or think I am being insensitive, I don't mean to but i have to be honest. Sorry, I'm a total hypocrite, because in a previous post I talk about long paragraphs, SORRY. X
Lot's of Love, Hugs & Fairy Dust! xxxxx
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Posts: 1362 (06/13/09 16:57:56) |
I confess that my confession wasn't about you
I confess you are way not the only person commenting on me 
I confess that I can however decide for myself what is healthy and what not I confess I usually blame myself for everyting I confess it's not easy to make me angry but I confess than when I do get angry, it is usually well deserved and long provoked. I confess my confession might have been more of a statement to myself that I had to say out loud to the world I confess I needed that. I confess an apology to everyone who was in any way bothered by it But I confess I can do a selfish thing every once in a while too (I might even have to learn doing that more often) |
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summer fairy |
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Posts: 7006 (06/14/09 07:43:21) Special Effects |
I confess that I was saying what I think. I won't take away what I said about it being unhealthy, because I believe that. You are more than entitled to
disagree. Infact I was in no way expecting you to agree to everything I said.
Lot's of Love, Hugs & Fairy Dust! xxxxx
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Ebdim9th |
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Posts: 985 (09/30/09 22:00:04) Brain Food |
I confess that Rachell and Dorothy are two good reasons to keep coming back to this board each time....
"correct me if I'm wrong but... Mission accomplished!" - George
"Your're wrong. This is me correcting you." - Rube |
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summer fairy |
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Posts: 7043 (10/01/09 06:39:18) Special Effects |
I confess that I have just readsome of the last posts I posted in this thread.
I confess they are rather funny! lol x I confess that everytime I come back on this board it is usually Phil who makes me feel welcome again!
Lot's of Love, Hugs & Fairy Dust! xxxxx
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Ebdim9th |
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Posts: 988 (10/01/09 15:48:13) Brain Food |
I confess that I dont mind, and confess to hoping I'm not the only one....
"correct me if I'm wrong but... Mission accomplished!" - George
"Your're wrong. This is me correcting you." - Rube |
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summer fairy |
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Posts: 7053 (10/02/09 12:23:58) Special Effects |
I confess that life is great and the people that matter to me are the only people that can affect me in any way that counts! x
Lot's of Love, Hugs & Fairy Dust! xxxxx
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Posts: 8101 (10/03/09 01:17:42) Special Effects |
I confess that when I found out that Steve becaume enraged when he found out that my department would no longer pay for or foot the bill for the 2.5 labor
years for some tasking that he grabbed up.I laughed......oh yes I laughed.
Steve has also been shut off from our account, and said account will be tracked for any transactions that are made to it. He ever hits it with charges, oh man oh man is he gonna have alot 'splainin to do. I confess I know that he will and I will laugh once again. |
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Ebdim9th |
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Posts: 993 (10/06/09 22:50:27) Brain Food |
I confess that Summer Fairy Rachell rocks and
I confess that I'm thrilled that ACM's workplace bum is finally being dealt with...
"correct me if I'm wrong but... Mission accomplished!" - George
"Your're wrong. This is me correcting you." - Rube |
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Ccusa91 |
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Posts: 7933 (10/08/09 01:30:41) Special Effects |
I confess, to ACM, that I do not believe a snake is dead until the snake, and it's head, are seperated.
I confess that President Obama met with gay rights leaders yesterday. I confess that the GBLT supporters, who supported then candidate Obama, feel that they have been left out once again. I confess that there has not been any reports on how the meeting went. I confess that it is funny that no news agency has reported the outcome. CC |
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ambercatsmom |
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Posts: 8106 (10/08/09 02:47:29) Special Effects |
I confess to Comma that work is underway for the head of the snake. It's going to be an epic ride.
I confess that the meeting that took place between the president and the GLBT supporters was reported albeit through the GLBT news portals. Main-stream media tends to not be too willing to report things, unless it's sensationlistic. |
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DorothyOverTheRainbow |
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Posts: 1418 (10/08/09 07:54:12) |
I confess "funny" wouldn't be my choice of words here... sad maybe.
(no ofence intended btw) |
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Ebdim9th |
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Posts: 994 (10/08/09 20:25:02) Brain Food |
I confess it appears that he's governing more "from the center" after all....
"correct me if I'm wrong but... Mission accomplished!" - George
"Your're wrong. This is me correcting you." - Rube
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